“Worry does not empty tomorrow of its sorrow, it empties today of its strength.”
-Corrie Ten Boom
I have been ‘looking back’ this week, which is unusual for me. But I have been looking back reflecting on how much I used to ‘worry’ and drawing to mind exactly what I ‘worried’ about. Oh, how much we all worry. I see it written all over the anxious and frown-lined faces of my students. (Nothing that a smile could not break though). What’s the point of worrying?
I, like you (in all probability), used to worry about things like being accepted, being loved, being good enough, being heard, being understood, being different, passing exams, walking in high heels, what I would do when I grow up, which colour lipstick is best, saying ‘no’, being alone, being left behind, being single, being poor, being everything other than in the good nick that I am generally in!
But what is important? I have my sanity (although some would question that), I have two good legs on which to walk (take out the ‘good’), I lead the quiet and peaceful life that I aspired to, I travel the world, and I live in a beautiful, safe country and I am not wandering the earth looking for a home. Plenty of food and a roof over my head. Most importantly I am well. Most importantly I am WELL!
The above photo shows two of my beloved nephews. The little one Luke adores his big brother Thomas. I look back at my challenges (real or imagined) and ask myself again and again, what did worrying resolve? Little Thomas faces a life of nothing but challenge. He has Cystic Fibrosis. And I am writing this knowing that once again he is in hospital for treatment, and then home hospital for a while, and through no fault of his own, simply because he was born with a recessive gene. It is a tough little life. I am not here to speak about his illness, I am here thinking about how beautiful he is, how courageous, how compassionate and how important it is for him not to worry and for me not to worry about him. The best I can do is be by his side, keeping him calm and laughing a lot. And that entails ‘living in the present’. Putting all my judgements aside and loving him with every fibre in my being.
Just as we learned he had Cystic Fibrosis, I wrote these words for him. They still apply, some nine years later, even more so now. He has them framed by his bed and apparently reads them from time to time.
I send them back out into the universe with all good intention, hope, love and peace. May they manifest for him into a life of less worry and much mirth …..
A calm spirit and a happy soul….that is what I wish for him! And for you!
“The first time I held you I felt my heart ignite with joy.
Your dear little face and your big brown eyes delve into the core of my soul.
Each time I gently kiss you on the forehead or the tip of your nose you hold your breath and close your eyes. It is such a sweet vision, one that I imagine as I wake in the morning and when I think of you throughout the day.
What do I wish for your future?
That you may always view the world in awe; be truly peaceful; seek truth; be kind to yourself and compassionate towards others; take lots of deep breaths; do everything you want to do; live with wonder; treasure each moment; smile at everyone you meet; explore the world; read books; laugh a lot; create memories for others to cherish; open your heart; listen carefully; speak with warmth, learn everything you can; and believe you are beautiful.”
Annemaree x January 2009
For more information on Cystic Fibrosis….www.cysticfibrosis.org.au
The photo of Thomas & Luke was taken by dad. A very proud dad.
this is very powerful Annemaree. thank you for sharing.
How beautiful. Good luck to little Luke who is very lucky to be surrounded by so much love.